Departing of ways

April 29th, 9:03 p.m.
Me: Are you mad at me?
C: Nah, I don't want to talk though.
Me: Okay, Sunday?
C: Nah, I don't want to talk for a while. Give me a week.
Me: Um, why?
C: I'll burst if we talk one more time.
Me: In a bad way?
C: Yeah.
Me: Did I do something?
C: Nah, its me.
Me: Okay, well, how about I give you today, tomorrow, and the weekend?
Is that enough?
C: not at all. I need a lot.
Me: Are we good? I mean should I be worried?
C: Yeah, leave me alone.
Me: Okay, good night.

And that was that. I didn't fight, I didn't yell, I didn't even twitch.
Right after that I fell asleep.
That was nearly 12 hours ago, and only now questions are arising in my head, why now? Why when we're finally in a relationship again? I'm trying not to be a big-weirdo-creep. I'm trying not to think about it too much. So much that I break, and end up texting him or something. Thus why this idea popped in my head: why not have an outlet? Everyday that he's gone, I'll just update this. It puts my thoughts and ideas into perspective, and I honestly do need that.
One of the moments I would have liked to talk to C about today: I was watching Spiderman, and the infamous scene where Mary Jane and Spiderman kiss upside-down reminded me of the day where we were driving back from Loews. I had my head on your lap (as-per-usual) and the car was rocking back and forth due to the bumps on the highway, your left arm was braiding and un-braiding my hair (you were always the only one I let touch my hair), your right arm was holding my hand, and every so often rubbed my arm when I felt a chill. I felt you looking at me, and I looked back, and we kissed just how Mary Jane Watson and Peter Parker did after he saved her life, that one rainy night. And after that day, the feeling we both felt, the electricity surging through our bodies, became a favorable topic between us. I'd forgotten about that. That shows how different we are, three years later.

Something that keeps my insecurities in check: "I know you probably don't believe me, but I need you just as much as you need me, if not more."

Gabriel Iglesias.

Yesterday, i had the pleasure of seeing Gabriel Iglesias live.

The day started off with a couple of my good friends and I going to Morristown, New Jersey. My mom and I used to make a daily commute to Morristown for food, or the bank, so I'm pretty familiar with the town. We walked a few blocks from the Mayo Center for Performing Arts and ate at Burger King. Mind you, we were dressed like we were going to a cocktail party, and there we were, scarfing down double quarter pounders.

After the heavy dinner, we walked to the park were I spent so many childhood days, running around while my mom was talking on her cell phone.

The park was double as beautiful as I remembered. We laid on the grass, sipping ice teas, and taking in the sun and wonderful breeze.

Around 7:20, we headed back to the theater, and waited until the doors opened. We found our seats (row O, in the Orchestra) As the theater started getting more and more packed, I became more and more excited. The show was sold out, and there were people of ALL ages there.

The host was Martin Moreno, and there were 4 opening acts, but the one I enjoyed the most was Noe Gonzalez. First of all, this dude is 5'2, and the main basis of his joke are about being short. He even asks "Who here is short?!" I raised my hand (5'1) , along with others in the crowd and he proceeds to say "Yeah, you're all women." He then made jokes about being called "Little man" and that especially hit close to home for me because my friends call me Little Short Melissa, iknorite? He was great, and definitely should be more well-known.

After being introduced by a super-cool montage on one of the video screens on the stage (involving Erik Estrada dressed as a cop "Chips" anyone?) Gabriel Iglesias runs on stage, and the crowd went nuts. I could literally hear the fist-pumping in the air. After Gabriel catches his breath (ten minutes later) he starts of with saying that New Jersey's air is different than California's. That we actually have something called, oxygen.

One of my favorite parts of the show was when Gabriel says "This isn't like t.v. I can see you." The show was fantastic, as Gabriel involves the crowd a lot, and even takes requests. At the end of the night, I drove home excited, happy, and fulfilled.

A day well spent.